Marlon

feeling the past moving in
Letting a new day begin
Hold to the time that you know
You don't have to move on or let go

i hate giving so much and feeling like i'm not getting enough back. the return is disappointing. is it worth it?

next weekend i am packing my purple duffel and heading to my best friend's house, yes, her very own house. it's crazy to think about how far we've all come. i was talking to my friend danielle the other day and she told me she was PREGNANT, and keeping it!!! i am so happy for her. it's awesome, mind boggling, and refreshing all at the same time. i can't wait to leave tallahassee. i am so homesick. i miss my mom, brother, and friends. i can't say it enough. i've been working out lately and its helped me to relieve stress. sometimes you gotta just sweat it outtttt yaknow. there are always fucking downs, but in the end, shit always just happens to work out. working at the survey research lab and loving it again.

viva america,
mz

you know it's the dawn of a new era when michael jackson dies. r.i.p <333

enjoy
mz

Lately i wanna go home. yet after serious thought i realized, when i do go home, i find myself wanting to come back to tallahassee. where do i find a medium? i miss my mom, brother, sister, and kelsey. not so much my dad, i recently realized how selfish and stupid he is. apparently he's marrying this really young lady (compared to his age) who his family suspects of being a gold digger. good for him. relationships can make you happy, sometimes. just when my apartment began gaining character the year comes to a close, signaled by jil's move out by Friday. my roommate cindy put it best, "it's the end of an era." I'm gonna miss this environment. i'm staying in Tallahassee for another year. Hopefully by then I will have decided what I want to do with myself. I want stability. a year of waiting and best friends forever gives me a 6 track cd? i was expecting more.


xoxo
mz

"Can you bear it upon you?
My love has gone under
Above all the stars
Have forgotten to glow

But if you keep holding on to
My body below you
I'll warm you and keep you
From feeling alone"

love mirah

where my friends at
from the front to back
well is you feelin that
put one hand up
can you repeat that
tryna take my man
see i don't need that
so don't play yourself

anyone remember this song? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCRrbh7if-0
does anyone read this anymore? is anyone out there? let me know.

summer is here! i just got back from a cruise to nassau, bahamas with my family. it was awesome! just like the keys only a little less americanized, with lots of pretty architecture and angry islanders at the port. the beaches are great, crystal sand and clear blue water. the best part about the weekend was being in the middle of the atlantic ocean. jumbo earth!!!! going to the bahamas makes me want to travel more. places i think about sometimes:
-Brazil/
-France
-Spain
-Chicago
too bad tallahassee is a desert this summer. is anybody out there? i'm going to be working and going to school, the usual grind, no distractions.


until i'm bored and feel like writing again,
Marlon

for the past year my itunes library was fucking weak. all my music was on my old computer back at home and i never felt like downloading again (soulseek sucks now). over spring break i finally bought a flash drive and took my music back. i'm now so content--just sitting in my room listening to my jams, it's great. just sayin'

i am 19 today. looking at myself a year ago i was still in high school! crazy, right? sometimes i'm so busy with my life i feel like i am losing myself. i never do the things i used to love. maybe i just don't love doing those things anymore. it's just one of those things i'll have to figure out and change. either way, i'm happy with the way things have worked out. i'm on my own, getting shit done, and fucking bitchez xoxo

the new animal collective is so exquisite and endearing, totally worth your listening.

I LANDED A SUMMER INTERNSHIP IN BROOKLYIN THIS SUMMER with viva radio (one of my favorite radio stations, might i add). sasha is letting me stay with her at her aunts in lower east side Manhattan. i would only have food and transportation expenses to worry about. i am so ecstatic and amused at how awesome of an opportunity this is. also, the qt in my class asked what my name was this morning and held a conversation with me before class started. i was so nervous and shy. i crush so easily always. 2009 is looking amazing.

i love my schedule this semester. i have no school fridays!!!!!!!! and there's this qt in my english class, i'm contemplating sitting next to them thursday. maybe. i have to stop sleeping so late.

my feelings about so many people and things have changed within a month, it's crazy! i'm in the process of some major spring cleaning. i cleaned my whole room/bathroom as soon as i got home. i plan on doing laundry tomorrow. i'm bringing back making lists in 09. the first one is a long and refreshing one. i wanna get a new moleskine. i'm more efficient when i visualize things. i wanna start making things again! i'm missing that creative outlet i used to have. my new year's resolution is to get an awesome summer job somewhere new and exciting and SAVE money. i also wanna paint more, read more, drink less, smoke less, and dress nicer HAHA i like growing up.

leave it to lastnightsparty.com to post the most ridiculous pictures of my best friends and i at our worst. this picture is hilarious. i can't wait for winter music conference! truly my favorite time of the year.

my family has left the building. shit's gone haywire. i want to work really hard to be independent. i don't want to have to rely on anyone anymore, including my parents. i think that's the solution i see to all of this; i don't want to be so immersed in it that i end up feeling the way i do. i don't ever make any sense on this but i usually feel better after venting on here, it's that impersonal.

my new favorite boy band obsession

thanks brittany!